Hello
Welcome to little corner of the cyberworld. I am Ellie. And I am looking for someplace to just be me and figure out who that is and what I want to stand for. I am looking for 2013 to be the year. 2012 was a year of changes. And I need to figure out how to move forward and be the best me I can be.
Miles is my manfriend/unofficial fiance. We agree we are getting married, probably this summer or fall. But he hasn't actually asked or got down on one knee with a ring. He just casually mentioned that we should probably do that this summer or fall. So it's an unofficial engagement. We live with my 2 sons. I met Miles thru my job in healthcare. We have been a couple for almost 2 years. I moved in last summer. This is a big change for all of us. Miles was an only child and has never been married, never lived with anyone but his mother. He took care of her until she passed away several years ago. I was married and have been divorced for almost 20 years. I have had a few serious relationtionships over the years. Miles has also. Miles is different than anyone I have ever been with. He is much more old fashioned and will stand up to me when he thinks I am over extending myself. I really need this and love him for it. We are not a couple you would expect to be together but we fill in each other's holes. There is a large age difference between us. It's over 10 years but we don't care. My kids get it and are totally for us. My siblings don't. It's one of the changes from last year. I always looked up and tried to have the approval of my sisters. But some harsh words were exchanged. I know that the relationships will never be the same. I don't know that the damage could be repaired if the effort was put forth. And none of us are trying. We are civil but not close the way we used to be. So I feel like with moving to a new area, ending my family ties and living to please myself, God and Miles, it like a whole new world. Maybe I can be Dorothy somewhere over the rainbow living my happily ever after. Stick around and find out with me.
Ellie
